It's amazing how one moment can have several points of view.
However, at that particular moment, they were just mine and yours.
It was at the party of SOM, the music blared loudly, the drinks free flowed, and everybody just kept talking and dancing. The lights twinkled against the dark room as eveything turned surreal. The faces around me were covered up by either the mask of mascara and lipstick or the veil of unreasonable laughter and smiles. I, along with my other two friends, walked around and looked for familiar individuals. But then again, everybody around us was hid under their impenetrable masks. And so, we opted to just go to the photobooth, took pictures, got ice cream, and stayed in front of the glass stage/runway. At last, after a glimpse of eternity, three hosts started talking and welcoming everyone. That night, the candidates of Mr. and Ms. SOM went through the question and answer portion. A part of the crowd cheered when their bet was called. I screamed when Ate Isay and Kuya Al went out, and shouted along with my friends until they left the stage. I sighed. Suddenly, my phone rang. Oops, my parents were on their way. I inched closer to the door, but more people were coming in. So, I waited till only few would pass.
And then, as my eyes surveyed the crowd, I saw you. You stood out. Among the masquerades, you were the only one who wore none. You were raw, with some kind of unique charm you alone exude.
Quite surprisingly, you looked at me too. You caught me staring, but I did not avert my eyes. I wanted to get lost in yours. Yet, you looked away, and began talking to your friends.
That's when I knew. That's when I realized that you were just looking in my direction, looking at the photobooth right behind me. I let out a frustrated chuckle. I shook my head, said goodbye to my two very loyal friends, and went out.
You see, you'll never know how special that moment was for me. For you, it was just a prolonged glance at the people making poses in front of the camera. But for me, it was an illusion- an absurd fantasy that finally, after three months, you noticed me too.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Letter no. 3
Dear ______________,
No matter how life tries to make you sad, remember that there are many reasons to be happy, to be joyous about. Though your heart is currently breaking right now, someday you'll find someone who will make you whole again. You'll find someone who will fix you. Wait. Let me rephrase that. Someone will come, unexpectedly, to fill that hole in your heart. Someone will push your insecurities away with just one little compliment. Someone will embrace you, with fears and all. Someone will love you, for who you are, no matter how broken you are.
Don't fret. I know you are feeling lonely and absurdly sad these days. When you feel like crying, remember that you have friends who are willing to lend you their shoulders. When you feel like lashing out, remember that there are people who are willing to scream with you. When you feel like giving up, remember that your loved ones never give up on you. And so dear, you must fight. You must continue to laugh and cheer. You must always see the brighter side of things. You must always see the rainbow in every storm.
Continue being patient. You don't have to be in a relationship to be happy, dear. :) Do not force yourself to like someone, 'cause in the end, you'll hurt yourself more. However, stop pretending. Stop living in your illusions. Start dreaming and waking up each day with the face of reality smiling upon you. After all, the most bitter moments of our lives make our journey sweeter and much more rewarding. Accept, cry, and smile.
Light up the world more with your chuckles and smiles. Believe me, if you just look carefully, you'll see gazillion reasons why you should get better than this, why you should move on. I know it hurts, but you have to step forward, right? :)
Yours forever,
_____________
No matter how life tries to make you sad, remember that there are many reasons to be happy, to be joyous about. Though your heart is currently breaking right now, someday you'll find someone who will make you whole again. You'll find someone who will fix you. Wait. Let me rephrase that. Someone will come, unexpectedly, to fill that hole in your heart. Someone will push your insecurities away with just one little compliment. Someone will embrace you, with fears and all. Someone will love you, for who you are, no matter how broken you are.
Don't fret. I know you are feeling lonely and absurdly sad these days. When you feel like crying, remember that you have friends who are willing to lend you their shoulders. When you feel like lashing out, remember that there are people who are willing to scream with you. When you feel like giving up, remember that your loved ones never give up on you. And so dear, you must fight. You must continue to laugh and cheer. You must always see the brighter side of things. You must always see the rainbow in every storm.
Continue being patient. You don't have to be in a relationship to be happy, dear. :) Do not force yourself to like someone, 'cause in the end, you'll hurt yourself more. However, stop pretending. Stop living in your illusions. Start dreaming and waking up each day with the face of reality smiling upon you. After all, the most bitter moments of our lives make our journey sweeter and much more rewarding. Accept, cry, and smile.
Light up the world more with your chuckles and smiles. Believe me, if you just look carefully, you'll see gazillion reasons why you should get better than this, why you should move on. I know it hurts, but you have to step forward, right? :)
Yours forever,
_____________
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