It's so easy to be carried away by emotions, but it's very hard to think rationally when all you want to do is fall and smile in sweet surrender. Thankfully, after pondering for days, I know now what is the best thing to do.
Move forward.
I cannot be stuck in the moment, or else I would forever be in a phase where my point of reason is an event that I can view through a single facet. I know that I must make a decision though all the choices presented to me will bring discomfort. Telling him would bring me a sense of relief but would bring awkwardness, not telling him and keeping all these feelings would cause me great distress and would make me do weird things, and accepting what happened and moving on would surely bring some thoughts of regrets but will inevitably be the best choice for me.
I'm tired of making things complicated, of hiding and running away, of denying him, and doing things to make him feel special. I want someone who has the guts to take risks and show me what he really feels. I want to be with someone who is mature enough to be with me for a very long time. I just want someone to love me and care for me.
To you, if you really like me then do something. I'm not forcing you to be in a relationship with me right now but give me some real and concrete sign. I'm willing to stop and wait for you. However, if you feel less, let me continue to walk away.
Maigas! Another post to prove that we really are kindred spirits.
ReplyDeleteDude, I just want you to be happy, and whatever you choose, if it makes you happy, then I'm okay with it >:D<